There are so very many things to contemplate today.
I will soon be 39-my father died at this age.
In a few weeks Fiona will be 1- officially a toddler.
On the 5th of Febuary, Greg and I will have been together for 6 years-longer than I have ever been in a relationship.
My mother has been cancer free for 3 years and has been battling Liver disease for 1 year.
I am so very thankful for all of these things. They let me know that I am loved and capable of loving. I am blessed to have been with Greg this long. After all most, businesses fail within the first 5 years! I am the mother of two children who are healthy, smart, loving, and most of the time, kind. I am in an age where I am no longer consumed with "keeping up with the Jones'." I am content with who I am and what I have become (OK-most days). I have grown to respect the wisdom of my mother and to be able to speak my mind without feeling like a child that has done something wrong. I have wonderful friends that validate me as a mother and woman. I am proud to call them friends because I find each one of them strong and a source of knowledge beyond what they might think. Thank you to my circle of Divas! I am thankful for friendships made so long ago that they now seem like family!
I would like to see my life simplified in 2009. I hope to kiss my husband every day because the reality is that if I lost him I would lose my compass. The journey is more fun when we are together-even when we are lost! I want to play with my children more. I want them to remember that I took time for them not that I was too busy for them. I want to watch less TV or be on the computer less. I think I owe it to my family to set an example of moderation. To get out of the house to take walks or go to the park. I want to use my cloth diapers more. If nothing else to use the investment we made but also to decrease our carbon imprint on the earth. I want enjoy the people in my life more often. I think that I need this as a person-to remember that I am also an individual not just a mother or wife.
I do not expect to be mother Teresa. I will probably lose "Mother of the Year" by noon. I just want to make our lives better and to recognize a few things that I can do to make them happen. I also would like to wish everyone a Happy New Year! Cheers to 2009!
2 comments:
Good stuff, my friend. Rooted in reality with a nice dose of challenge which we all need as evolving, intelligent human beings. I appreciate and value the level of awareness that you have and wish you all that you need to learn and grow. Proud of you!
Love it Jana. If only we had the wisdom of motherhood and age a long time ago. Oh what better choices we would have made (wouldn't have been as fun though) :)
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